can you see me...

of course you can't

because

i'm hiding behind this old out building

feeling guilty

~

i've been a bad

blogger commenter

lately

and

i need to apologize

to all of you

~

everyday

so many of you take the time

to leave me the most wonderful and beautiful comments

that make me smile and laugh and feel grateful

and

i just want to thank all of you

and

apologize

for not doing the same thing to you

~

so

if you forgive me

i promise to get my act together

like

really

really

soon

and

be there for all of you

like you are for me

~

deal

*

what....no really, i mean what

i bought a fish yesterday

for no reason

other then that when i was looking for a serving platter in one of my cupboards

last week

for my parent's anniversary party

i came across a glass vasey like bowly thing

and

i thought to myself

"that needs to have a fish in it"

~

so yesterday

my daughter and i went to the pet store

and

came home with a fish

~

he's pretty

isn't he

~

so today i had planned on asking all of you for your help

~

suggestions

for pet names for me to try out on him

with

maybe some kind of give away or something

for the winning name

~

but

after cleaning the rocks for the bottom of his bowl, fixing the water so the minerals in the tap water wouldn't kill him, making sure the water temperature itself was perfect and finally getting him out of his little plastic bowl from the pet store and into his new home

and

then

feeding him

i was all like

"what.was.i.thinking"

and

decided

that was the perfect name for him

~

seriously

"what.was.i.thinking"

and

that i'd just call him

WHAT

for short

~

i think he likes it

~

although i noticed this morning

he seemed to look at me only when i called him

mr. what

*

oh that brian....

When I grow up, I want to remember that I always wanted to be about a thousand different things & one lifetime didn't seem nearly enough. When I grow up, I hope it's at the very end when it doesn't matter anymore anyway.

brian andreas

i wish....

i wish i had

a long post today

filled with glittery magical words

borrowed from a fairy

that you could tuck into your heart

and

carry with you until your head sinks into your down filled pillow tonight

but i don't

~

i wish i had

the energy to do all the things that need to get done today

but as i sit here typing

i've decided

everything can wait

that nothing is that important

today

~

well almost everything

~

there's a cool breeze blowing in my window

that's been absent for weeks

as

we've been suffering from the kind of humidity where particles floating in the air

actually stick to your body

so

today

i think it only fair

that if the only thing that gets checked off my

"don't really want to do it ever"

list

is maybe

oh

let's say

cleaning one toilet

while the rest of my day is spent with my hair blowing in the wind

while i close my eyes

and

soak up the sounds of the birds that sound happier than they did a few days ago

well

then

that would be a perfect day

wouldn't it

*

the photo above has nothing to do with today, but everything to do with the past 2 weeks while my sister and her family have been visiting. i got this shot after my nephew had finished showing me some of his mad skateboarding tricks and i just loved how he looked all sweaty and adorable.

and they said it wouldn't last....

i'm getting personal on my blog today

with photos from my parents 50th wedding anniversary party

that we celebrated yesterday

at my little sister's house

~

and

yes

those parents of mine

are still sucking face

after all these years

here are all of their grandchildren

~plus my daughter's boyfriend~

and

~minus the second oldest granddaughter~

who was here earlier in the week

but

had to get back to boston where she works and goes to college

here's a joke

~

what do you get when you have 3 daughters

~besides drama and a few headaches~

3 gorgeous son-in-laws

of course

and

here are some of my cousins from my dad's side of the family

who were amazingly cooperative when it came to have their having photo taken

thank you

rick and cindy

steve and judy

sheldon, mike and pam

you guys were so much fun

~

the best part of my day

was spent

pulling friends and family aside

letting them believe that they were just going to have a regular photo taken

and

then hitting them with the word

kiss

~

my favorite photos

are

over here

and

i think if you have time to look at them

you'll get quite a kick out of them

too

~

simple things..kind of

today is my mom's birthday

she's 69

i'm meeting her for lunch in a few hours

~

someday i want a crooked fence

just like the one above

~

it's pink

i mean really. come on. a pink fence. does it get any better than that.

and

see the little red berries growing in front of it

~

i want those

too

~

that's not too much to ask for

is it

~

i just bought the new

droid incredible

yesterday

and

i'm trying to figure out what's so incredible

about it

~

it does everything

but

honestly

today

i had to call myself on it

from my home phone

just to figure out how to answer it

~

it is a phone

right

~

i hope your friday is filled with

love and silly things

all day long

*

when my mind wanders...

i bet i would have loved the building that held this chimney

but

the chimney all alone

brave and standing on his own

in the middle of nowhere

slightly leaning

made me get out of the car

~

the building

itself

might not have done that

~

have you noticed

that when you peel back the layers of

anything

it's the contents you find inside that are amazing and beautiful

~

think about it

~

isn't the woman's face

plastered with makeup

and

whose lashes stick together when she blinks

really beautiful and full of life

after she's washed everything off and left it all behind in her washcloth

and

isn't a banana or an onion fabulous

inside

once it's been peeled

and

when someone is filled with crappy memories

don't they look radiant when they've told their story

to someone who understands

because

they finally rid themselves of the pain that was blistering them from the inside out

~

but

the most beautiful thing to ever see

once the layers are peeled back

is someones heart

and

sometimes

if they're really stubborn

that can take more patience and understanding then you ever thought possible

and

it will make you sweat and cry and pound your fists and walk away and come back

and

do it all over again

but

once you find

that heart

and

hold onto it

you'll never regret all the work it took

and

all the peeled layers

that had to be gently discarded along the way

to finally

see it

and

talk to it

and

be with it

*