sometimes it's heavier than it looks...

it's not always easy to believe in yourself
~~
but
if you do believe in yourself
fearlessly
you will always have a thirst for life
that
nobody else will ever quite understand

I believe
that we are all facing choices that define us
and
if you choose to believe in
forgiveness and wonder
your faith will soar
~~

I also believe
that we all have growing pains
and
if you quit on yourself
even the tiniest little bit
everyone else will
too
*
~this is my wednesday spc for the incredible and beautiful misty~
and
who knew i could have so much fun with a sign
?

I know I know I know...

it's spc wednesday

and

"I GOT NOTHING"

new

~~~~~

my creativity level sank this week

even though

the comments about my photos last week

kept me floating on air for days and days

~~~

"thank you"

EVERYONE

for the kind and wonderful words you showered me with

~~~

so this week

with the self timer not on and my camera in it's bag

I went through my archives and found this picture

which I'm sure I've used before

but

completely shows an emotion I wanted to share

~~~

this is me at the beach

in my favorite spot

seaside

florida

with a cold wave washing up my back

and

I'm happy

~~

actually

more than happy

~~~~~

ecstatic~delirious~carefree~euphoric~blissful~lighthearted~overjoyed~thrilled

yep

something exactly like that

~~

so

like a handful of wild flowers

go ahead

pick one for yourself

and

have a wednesday filled with just a little bit more happiness than you had intended

*

{and yes...of course...I did a little processing/editing on my photo}

straight out of the camera...

it's wednesday again

which means these photos are for misty's self portrait challenge

~~~

I tried to be creative

yet I wanted my emotions to be seen

and

maybe even felt

~~~

lately my emotions have been taking me places I don't want to go

making me feel things I don't want to feel

showing up when they haven't been welcomed

and

just generally being hard to live with

~~~

I've always given credit to myself for being an emotional person

with

my heart on my sleeve

for the world to see

but

when those negative emotions start to turn on you

it's hard to like them

or

be proud of them

so I'm working on putting them where they belong

I fight with them

they win

I win

we go round and round

I walk out

they come running after me

but overall

I brush them aside and laugh at them

because that's just how I am

~~~

it's not worth the energy

to fight off

the blackness they want to blanket me in

~~~

although

they did force me take my photos in our unfinished basement

thinking it was the only way you could feel what I was trying to describe

~sneaky little things~

~~~

but

in doing so I ended up laughing at myself

because that's just how I am

~~~

I'm just not serious for more than a few hours

I never have been

and
I have tons of smile lines around my eyes to prove it
*