I wish
I had something profound to say today
but
the words I feel are caught in my throat
and
even with cup after cup of hot tea
they refuse to budge
~~
my guiding light
my true north
my hearts anchor
my keeper of everything
is
gone
~~
his new job calls
and
monday
the united states olympic committee
will welcome him with open arms
~~
so for now
I just want to say to this amazing man
{because I know he's reading this on the road}
~~
"I am so amazingly proud of you, I can hardly stand it"
and
"you'll be missed more than you'll ever know
and
more than I'll ever let on"
~~
so
soon
I'll gather the pile of words and a few loose vowels
that my heart has been collecting
that my throat refuses to release
and
gently put them in a wheelbarrow
and
take them out back and plant them one by one
in a perfectly sunny spot where they'll drink in sweet rainwater and magically be kept safe from the little teeth of the chewing rabbits whose scrunched up noses and wiry whiskers make me laugh
so
they can grow
and
blossom
into a brilliant garden of beautiful thoughts
where
at first
they'll look
a little bit like weeds
due to my green thumb being a little blue
but
they'll have really big hearts
and
limbs that blow in the wind
just for you
*
oh Beth. Hugs.
ReplyDeletewhat a beautiful post.
ReplyDeletesimply lovely beth.
Beth, what a beautiful post, lovely reading it!
ReplyDeleteSometimes few words carry the most feeling - I'm sure your beloved partner will treasure these.
ReplyDeleteso so sweet.
ReplyDeletebeautiful photo, beth.
OH, Beth...
ReplyDeleteWhat will he be doing that causes him to go away? No wonder the words are sticking to each other, unable to squeeze out.
ReplyDeleteawwww, sweetie....big hugs. it seems my words are stuck too as i don't know how to comfort you but to virtually hold your hand.
ReplyDeleteyour love is so beautiful, beth...
ReplyDeletebless your garden...
Oh Beth my thoughts are with you. Let us carry you...keep sharing it's soothing...
ReplyDeleteHang in there. You both are so blessed with this love.
Big heart hug to you, Beth!
ReplyDeleteLove, Love, Love You!!!
Bethy, Your post made my heart so envious of the type of love you two share. My eyes spilled a couple of those tears that you used to catch from your children and put in your pocket... I wonder if John's pockets are spilling over with tears and swirling thoughts. You KNOW they are.
ReplyDeletelove you, shell xoxxoxox
You are so lucky to share that kind of love....like "shell", I am envious. Lots of strength to both of you!
ReplyDeleteAs evening draws close, I hope you can feel all of our thoughts and love gathered round as this important next chapter begins to unfold. Hugs, my girl friend.
ReplyDeleteyou said it perefctly...
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautifully written love ballad.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully expressed, Beth. I'm sure those planted words will be blooming very soon.
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely beautiful words, so honest and moving.
ReplyDeleteHugs! Hopefully, you'll be back together again soon. Lovely macro!
ReplyDeletebeth this will be hard ~but your togetherness is strong~your words here so intimate and poetic
ReplyDeleteblessings
elk
What a beautiful love letter. And the flowers that are blooming in that garden of yours must be something very very special.
ReplyDeletexo
This day HAD to come and so hard to romanticize it, but somehow you managed. As mad as I can get at Double BB, I do NOT want him away for even one night ... keep growing the words, sending the bouquets, it will all close the distance and keep HIM near ... best of luck to him, though ... what a great opportunity!
ReplyDeleteOh, many hugs. It's so hard to miss someone, even when you know it's wonderful and good and all the right things... it's just far away. But oh, this is simply beautiful!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. All of you.
ReplyDeleteYou know that.
Just sending love.