how do I love thee...or not

misty is doing a small self portrait challenge on her blog

and

silly me

I said that I'd play along

~~

what the hell was I thinking

?

I don't like having my picture taken

by anyone

which is why I'm so happy to be on the other side of the camera

so

having to take pictures of myself

for a challenge

~painful~

~~

I've always wanted to love "me" just the way I am

but as I get older

I have a really tough time doing the loving that needs to be done

which is maybe why

for this challenge

I put on my big girl panties

believed in myself a little more than usual

and

said

"you can do this"

it's still too chilly to be outside shooting
~especially MYSELF~
so these were all taken in the house as I walked around trying to be creative
and
realizing that taking photos of "me"
with a timer
is not easy
and
focusing mostly on my face was becoming really hard to do

if I could have airbrushed my nose straighter
and
added highlights to my hair
and
softened the lines around my eyes
and
smoothed the bumps around my butt
and
made my giraffe neck shorter
and
straightened my teeth which are currently wearing invisalign
and
warmed my blinding winter white skin
I would have
~~
but then that wouldn't have been me
would it
?

so here's an air blown kiss to all of you
for being such wonderful blogging friends
and
hopefully now that you've seen me in a new light
I haven't scared you away
*