straight out of the camera...

it's wednesday again

which means these photos are for misty's self portrait challenge

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I tried to be creative

yet I wanted my emotions to be seen

and

maybe even felt

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lately my emotions have been taking me places I don't want to go

making me feel things I don't want to feel

showing up when they haven't been welcomed

and

just generally being hard to live with

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I've always given credit to myself for being an emotional person

with

my heart on my sleeve

for the world to see

but

when those negative emotions start to turn on you

it's hard to like them

or

be proud of them

so I'm working on putting them where they belong

I fight with them

they win

I win

we go round and round

I walk out

they come running after me

but overall

I brush them aside and laugh at them

because that's just how I am

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it's not worth the energy

to fight off

the blackness they want to blanket me in

~~~

although

they did force me take my photos in our unfinished basement

thinking it was the only way you could feel what I was trying to describe

~sneaky little things~

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but

in doing so I ended up laughing at myself

because that's just how I am

~~~

I'm just not serious for more than a few hours

I never have been

and
I have tons of smile lines around my eyes to prove it
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