i must confess....

i have two lovers. fall has made his presence known. he's here in the morning when i wake up and he comes back late in the day and stays with me all night. but summer and i sneak out in the afternoons for a just a couple of hours.

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is it wrong to still walk hand in hand with summer around the pond after lunch. is it wrong to let him breathe warm sweet whispers on my neck in the afternoon while i read on the sunporch. is it wrong to let him tease me the way he does.

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i think not

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he tells me to give into fall. that he's a wonderful lover, too. but i know that fall doesn't stay as long as he should. he never does. and eventually his replacement shows up and we don't get along very well. winter takes my breath away but not in the way a gentle lover does.

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so

i'm not angry at summer for having to leave. i'm actually more upset that fall won't stay as long as i'd like. so right now while i have my afternoon flings with summer, fall just can't complain. i'd give myself to him completely if he promised me that he'd stay through november, but he never does. and he's smart enough to not make promises that he can't keep.

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so my affair continues again today. i think we're going to the zoo. and funny enough everyone seems to be doing the same thing. i see them. out for lunch. walking in the park. they're just like me. doing the same thing. but they don't talk about it.

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