so gross, but cool

when we were walking along the river the other day

taking pictures

and

being thankful for the thawing and wishing it was july

so we could put our toes in and test the water

I spotted this

~~~

ewwwww

~~~~~

it's a fish

probably a blue gill

I'm guessing

~~~

everything was intact

including the eyeball

staring back at me

~~~~~

now years ago when our kids were little and we had them with us all the time

this would have been so much more fun to find

because

my son and I would have found a stick

and

unlodged the poor fish from his burial grounds

and

jumped back as he floated to the top

closer to us

~~~

and

then we would have helped him to the bank

so we could really get a close up look at him

and

then jack probably would have stabbed him with the stick

just to make sure he was really dead

and

we would have laughed

~~~~~

that's the kind of mom I was

and

still am

~~~

but

since it was just me and my hubby at the river

this stick wielding mom who helps poke at buried fish didn't come out

until I looked at this picture on the camera

~~~~~

and

now I'm so wishing she had