I would...really, I would...

if I could swing away all day

I would

and

I would think about

him

and

all the ways he makes me happy

and

wonder how I've been lucky enough to have someone in my life

who lets me be me

even when I'm still

so far away

from figuring out who exactly

that "me" is

~~

I would think about

his warm eyes and hands

that even with the tiniest of movements

can keep me from falling

when I'm the slightest bit shaky

~~

I would think about

how he smiles at me when I first wake up

and

pretends to ignore

the wild animal that is busy unfurling itself from the top of my head

~~

I would think about

the way he often doesn't have enough words

to keep up with all the ones that come out of me

like a tornado

vomiting up once loved belongings

yet

somehow makes me feel understood

~~

if I could swing away all day

I would

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i love the look of polaroids and since they are almost distinct

or at least the film is

I can only dream

~

but every now and then while I'm editing photos

I create what feels like a faux polaroid

often by mistake

and

then I swoon

and

I want to touch the photo in the same way you would with a polaroid once it was fully

developed

after

you had waited and waved it in the air and waited some more

~

yep

just like that

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