May 13, 2009

a touchy subject sometimes...

my family knows how easily I get distracted
with day to day things
~~
they laugh lovingly at me all the time 
and
I join them
~~
I call it my adult attention deficit disorder 
and
it's always there like a little fairy sitting on my shoulder poking me in the cheek saying
"see me~do you see me~see me~do you see me"
~~
I feel it
and
YES
I see it
but
I don't let it take over any part of my life
~~
if you need something done right or have a very specific task that needs 100% attention
then I'm your girl
and
whatever the project is
I'll get it done to a degree of perfection that make most people a little nervous
but
leave me with an open schedule
 and 
I'm all over the place
but
I like it that way
~~
this is probably something I've had all my life, but back when I was growing up, they just didn't have a name for it
which is wonderful
as my parents didn't have to worry about anything other than I talked too much
~~
as an adult I've just always prided myself on being an amazing multi-tasker
and
instead of worrying about it
just 
breathe a little deeper
dance a little faster
love a little slower
laugh a little louder
and
write a little braver
just to make sure I don't miss any of my life 
while I'm flicking and shooing that little fairy off my shoulder
*
it's self portrait wednesday, but you already knew that, right ?
for my photo today I used the editing program built into my mac and loved being able to get this soft effect
as it seemed to go along with the subject of my post
~~
{and in no way am I down playing ADD or the difficulties of living with it 
as our son was on medication for it for a number of years}





24 comments:

  1. AnonymousMay 13, 2009

    I am the same way:)kt

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  2. How wonderful you can look at yourself this way. Keep it up and you'll be very happy. I love the way the bubble is between you and your dog. Great great post. Thanks for letting us have a peek in your life.

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  3. my friend with adult add said it was like watching tv and you're constantly flipping through channels. so I understand the difficulty of it all. beautiful shot with the bubbles.

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  4. this is such a wonderful post. very good self reflection!

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  5. Funny, I said to my husband this past weekend, "we need to stop and get some bubbles..." He looked at me as though I had lost my mind, but now that I see your photo - well, I'll have to inform him that I'm not the only one. =) And never shoo that little fairy away, she's there to share much inspiration.

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  6. love it beth ~the picture is a metaphor

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  7. Such a sweet photo of you my friend:)

    i love how you embrace life wholeheartedly!

    Beautiful you!

    :)

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  8. This is a wonderful post and one to which I can relate personally. And you are so right -- isn't it wonderful we didn't have labels?

    There is no better way to embrace life than wholeheartedly. I confess to some adult ADD (self-diagnosed) myself -- which is why when I'm very disciplined, it gets done better than anything but like you when I'm on my own -- free-form. (Which is why I have spots in the house that I STARTED to work on but became entranced by something else!)

    But I'm having fun!

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  9. I am one hell of a multi-tasker, too! My bf says I always seem to have this sense of urgency when I go about my business....go go go!

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  10. Beth, when I was employed I stayed focused much better, now that I am at home, i find out of the blue something becomes important to do, then poof something else is more important to do. Love your photo and your little dog. what a little cutie!

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  11. My youngest? same thing ... so basketball has been such a BOOST for him, keeps him moving, changing, busting out, but that's called 'got game' -- otherwise landing on any subject for any stretch of time is asking a whole lot of him ... we have learned to get over how he leaves cupboard doors and drawers open and instead to ask him to energize for the important tasks ...

    great post. I want to blow bubbles now -- I wonder if Zoe would chase them? will have to find out.

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  12. And so explain to me why you're flicking the fairy off your shoulder.....

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  13. Hey, we all have our personal "challenges". I love this post.

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  14. Love the post ... love the photo ... wonder how you always manage just the right edit ... now what is the "label" for that darling little pooch? He's really concentrating 100% on you and that bubble!

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  15. WOW, I thought it was normal...hahaha!!!
    Great way to live, thanks for the suggestions....breathe a little deeper, dance a little faster
    love a little slower, laugh a little louder...that is what I will do!

    Love the photo, love the blog.

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  16. Beth...

    they didn't know what to call it at my little country school either.

    Love,
    Cam

    (and I think its what makes us so magnetic, we are fun & kinda on fast forward)

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  17. Great post Beth- and you sure explained me! I also self- diagnosed my adult ADD as I distracted very easily but can multi task and do it well- so it's working for me. Our daughter was just diagnosed this year with it after many years of thinking that was the issue- so I certainly understand it! Thanks for the kind comment about my post. Since I am well into my forties (actually almost on my way out)- I'm hoping I can find that confidence in my fifties; something to look forward to... lol. What did you end up doing about your shows and Elizabeth Berg???

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  18. Hi Beth,

    However you harness it it seems to work, so keep on doing it!

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  19. "When you don't know what to do, blow bubbles." - a mantra of mine !

    Beautiful portrait!

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  20. I can't get past your beautiful
    photo

    puppies and bubbless

    and your words were thoughtful,
    gentle and true:)

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  21. Awww..what a sweet photo. And I love the idea of the fairy on your shoulder. The fairy on my shoulder is telling me to stop reading blogs and get ready for my day...I flicked her off too. ;)
    Your writing is so honest and true.
    Wonderful post.
    xo

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  22. did you perhaps sit down to describe me beth? LOL! i think it is simply the child within us that refuses to die and who we are not allowing to fade away.

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  23. so so so cute. love the soft effect.

    i got your comment about shooting together. drop me a line if you are serious! i would love to!

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  24. Love the photo! I understand completely...your words ring very true.

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**I love reading the comments you leave, as they make me feel like we're sitting in my kitchen, having a cup of tea, discussing life and wondering where all the time has gone ...beth