my hands are full...

and

lately I feel like I've been doing a really shitty job of juggling

"all the balls"

in my life

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have you ever lived your life in such a way

where everything felt pretty easy and a smile stayed glued to the corners of your mouth

even when you were doing the grossest laundry and cleaning up dog puke

and

then all of a sudden you got sucker punched in the gut

so hard with that so called easy life

that in the process of bending over to catch your breath you lost your balance

and

ended up on the floor in a fetal position

and

then decided that a few days or even a few weeks in that position

might not be so bad after all

because if you closed your eyes tight enough with your knees up against you chest

your breathing wasn't as labored as when you first got knocked down

?

please tell me you have

please tell me I'm not alone

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