it can't be all said at once, as my thoughts are still all over the place, jumbled

I did something spontaneous

for the first time in my life

and for that

I'm a changed person

the magic that comes from

the voice

of

jonatha

will stay with me forever

the water brought to me

the passion I've always felt for it

but this time

with an energy

that ran through my veins

I tried to soak in everything
around me
the smells
the sounds
the air
the quiet
but mostly
just
the
never ending
moments

this was my home
for
4 nights
2 of them bitterly cold
but
with layers and socks
and
a big down comforter
I
slept peacefully


{jonatha-andrea-jen}
~~~~~
women are amazing
we really are
and
this retreat
taught me to love myself
~~~~~
all the good parts
and especially the bad
but
most of all
that I can do
and
be
anything
and
everything

my
"heart rock"
on the way down to our dock
was a sign to me
to leave a little bit of myself
here
and to take home
with me
a new sense of self

if you know me
then you can see the love in my smile
as this woman
rocks
she is
crazy. beautiful . sexy. funny. safe . warm
and to have met her was a dream come true

stef
was one of my 7 housemates
and she is precious
and drop-dead gorgeous
with a never ending smile
and amazing hair
late one afternoon
she was doing yoga on our dock
and she let me take a few shots of her
what an amazing young woman

jess
was another housemate
soulful . quiet . kind
and makes the most amazing shirts
and
now I own one
thank you jess for being you

I only knew kelly
from the blogging world
but felt a connection
as she lives in indiana
and
can this beautiful woman
ever light up a room
I mean really
just look at her

oh heather
where do I begin
she was my roomie
a complete stranger
who I fell in love with immediately
she's soft spoken
gorgeous inside and out
she put up with me waking early
and we listened to each other
as we talked late into the nights
about life
{and she deserves her own post that will come later}

nina
the woman who pushed me
and taunted me
to get off my butt
to be spontaneous
and come to squam
and for what she did
I will love
her forever

sweet misty
with her huge heart
beautiful in so many ways
full of love and passion
and adventure
{i'll never forget our ride on the lake by the light of the moon}
you are an amazing soul

and saying good-byes in the airport
so hard to do
ellen
I wish we had spent more time together
and
anne
I loved our night where you shared our cottage
family room with us
and we had a chance to connect
~~~~~
this post has taken me most of my morning
but there's more to come
as I still have so much to share
more people, more stories, more photos
and
I don't want to forget anyone
or anything

{and ELIZABETH....you are my hero}