lately i've been unorganized and unsettled.
the piles of papers that live on our kitchen island and on my desk, aren't of tower like proportions any longer and the house, to the untrained eye, appears to look clean and comfortably lived in.
but inside. inside of me. now that's a different story.
it's because of tomorrow.
tomorrow i have surgery.
i could share the details. and someday i'm sure i will. but for now i'll just keep it at that.
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i've known for a week now that tomorrow will be "the day" and as hard as i've tried to stop thinking about it, it's always first in line, waving it's sticky little hand at me, yelling "pick me pick me" when i turn my thoughts on.
i'm blessed to have a husband who will be my nurse as i recover.
his bedside manner is impeccable, but if my pain pills make me vomit, i know he'll go running,
as that's about the only thing i've ever seen him run away from.
well, there is the occasional spider that doesn't get squished on the first attempt and falls near him that can really make him move quickly...but still, vomit or the sound of someone vomiting can literally make the man run.
other then that, i know he'll be at my side constantly, doing everything humanly possible to take care of me, since that's just the kind of guy he is.
so it will probably be quiet around here for a few days or maybe even a week. i hope to feel well enough in a few days to at least stalk all of you, but comments probably won't get written and my own blog posts will be slim to none.
unless of course, my pain pills surrender me helpless in la la land and the hubby wickedly decides to take control of my blog posts and writes something in my place, to get back at me for letting everyone know about his vomit phobia. it could happen.
i just hope he doesn't tell you why, no matter how hot i am,
that i have to have a bed sheet over me when i sleep.
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oh heck. i'll tell you. it's because of the ghosts.
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girlie, good luck with your surgery. i hope all goes well.
ReplyDeleteand thanks for the snickers on both of your phobias. :)
Oh sweetheart, surgery is always scary but know that I'll be thinking of you. I hope it isn't too involved, that you wake up pain free and on a speedy road to recovery.
ReplyDeleteBy the way I can't sleep unless I have a sheet over me too (no matter how hot I am either). Think it acts as some layer of protection though from what I'm not sure.
Take care of yourself and I know your husband will do you proud. Big hugs. xxx
dear beth,
ReplyDeletei am grateful you have shared your news and also your trepidations (i know how to pray now). this is what i know of such things: our bodies always love to go towards healing; others love us more than we dared even dream; and the smallest details of life take on new and more exquisite dimension.
with love and comfort to you and yours...on angel's wings...
-karen
Check your e-mail!
ReplyDeleteHugs
You will be in my thoughts and prayers as well as your dear husband.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts will definitely be with you....sometimes the anticipation and the waiting are worse than the actual event. Just remember that old saying......'this too shall pass'. Its a favorite of mine and even though its old and maybe over used it can still bring comfort....be well my friend....hugs deb
ReplyDeleteWow! Both having surgery on the same day. Let's double dutch our way through this together, baby!
ReplyDeletePrayers, hugs, love, light, healing and all that good stuff to ya.
We'll catch up after the pain meds wear off! ;)
Blogging will be at the bottom of your list of things to do missy...of that I hope.
ReplyDeleteRecovering from surgery and the anaesthesia takes time and it's important to rest and doze and rest and doze as the body tells you. And it's important to be in one prone position so that your husband can cater to your every whim!!!
Sending you thoughts of peacefulness, healing and love. Surgery is never something we look forward to -- and I've always just reminded myself that I'll be having a lovely sleep, know nothing about it and will soon waken to the bad stuff being over.
((((Beth))))
My prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteRest, and try not to do too much too soon.(that was my downfall) Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteRemember that our hugs and prayers surround you as you walk through the surgery and recovery. I hadn't thought about the ghosts, but maybe that is why I always want a bed sheet over me too. Take care and love!
ReplyDeleteI have to have atleast the sheet over me too... WAY too exposed to whatever might be out there :-)
ReplyDeleteHOpe all goes well and you're back to stalking in a few days time :-)
hugs to you my dear...hoping that you feel good soon so we can enjoy your posts again... see how selfish I am?
ReplyDeletetake care :0) xx
Will be thinking of you and good luck with your surgery. Will miss your pictures.
ReplyDeleteGood luck to you ... thoughts and prayers headed your way.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the surgery Beth, take care and time to recover.
ReplyDeleteIn this house I'm the one with the vomit phobia...eerrkk! Shudder just thinking.. :o)
Lizzie
xxx
So sorry to hear you are going through an icky surgery. I hope it's not too serious... Anyhow, I will pray for a speedy and vomit-less recovery. I understand the vomit phobia completely since the sound or sight will get my gag reflexes going ninety-to-nothin'! Seriously, sending hugs and prayers and positive thoughts your way.
ReplyDeletebe well soon. I'll be thinking of you <3
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PLEASE insist your Drs give you something for nausea (phenergan was a lifesaver), just in case.
ReplyDeleteNothing is worse than throwing up after surgery, until you realize you just got rid of your pain relief!
Thinking good thoughts and sending healing.
I will be praying for you tomorrow that all goes well during the surgery. And for the following days for a speedy recovery.
ReplyDeleteHow great to have such a wonderful husband (even though you'll have to clean up your own vomit, lol!)
Thanks for lightening the seriousness of this post with exposing both of your phobias!
(((HUGS)))
Rest and get all your strength back before even thinking coming back here. Sending loving and healing thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteYou will be surrounded by the best team of surgeons tomorrow, I just know it :-)
me, too! seriously. at least a sheet, always.
ReplyDeletegood luck tomorrow, i will be thinking of you. my dad is having his second hip replaced, i have to have him there by 6:30 a.m.
you take good care of yourself, and I know that your hubby will do the same. rest up and get better.
love you.
xoxo
thinking of you! don't worry your secrets are safe here. sheets due to vampires. don't you know the sheet protects you from vampires? xo
ReplyDeleteShall keep good thoughts for the surgery with a speedy recovery.
ReplyDeleteOur Loves do take care of us just as we would to them....this will make him feel like he really is doing something rather than feeling helpless. They just need to feel needed and able to do more than hold our hands.
Take care and soon you will be all fine.
hope all goes well and that you are up and posting your beautiful photos here soon--sending you happy thoughts and energy--your hubby will take good care of you-best c
ReplyDeleteI am holding you close in my prayers and wishing you a speedy recovery!!!! Sending love!
ReplyDeleteThoughts and prayers for you. I am sorry you are having surgery but it is a way to heal. Whatever your offensive part is will be gone and you can be rid of it. (my father was a surgeon and I lived with knowing about all kinds.) I'm the first to tell my doctors to take it out! Get it all. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me has seen me through and inside the hospital doors many times. Find a verse and use it as a mantra. xo Jenny
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking of you tomorrow Beth....yo'll be added to my prayer list.
ReplyDeleteA big high-five to your hubby for being the designated caregiver!!!
Good luck and quick healing to you!
ReplyDeleteEven the most minor surgery makes me so whimpy I can't stand myself. I'm glad you have your hubby and I bet even if he runs, he comes back as fast as he can to help you! Keeping you in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to know you are so surrounded by love and good juju, Beth! Take good care of you and soak up all that TLC from the hubby!
ReplyDeleteLove ya!
Praying for you!
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking of you Beth, wishing you a speedy recovery, the key will be plenty of rest and taking it easy...sounds like you will be in good hands. a big hug to you, will be saying a prayer for you.
ReplyDeleteI will be sending healing thoughts your way and thinking of you all day tomorrow...after that I may be sending my virtual support to your husband:)
ReplyDeleteTake care and we'll see you when you feel better!
Lots of love. xxx
ReplyDeleteBeth,
ReplyDeleteWill be sending prayers and good thought your way. Wishes for a speedy recovery and a no vomit recovery for the hubby!!!
Beth
You are a brave woman sharing some of your idiosyncrasies in your blog. Yikes.
ReplyDeleteWhatever the surgery is for, I will be thinking of you and sending love and hugs.
The best part is when it's over, so just think of that - every hour brings you nearer to it all being over with. Sending lots of love and prayers to you AND your hubby.
ReplyDeletexoxo
With all of these good wishes and prayers for you that you find here, things can go nothing but well for you.
ReplyDeleteI move you to the top of the Reiki list. Proceed with a joyful heart and know that all will be well!
Love, Hugs, and Reiki!
Oh sweetie, hope your surgery goes well and all is ok! Well wishes are flying your way!
ReplyDelete{{{Beth!!!}}}
ReplyDeleteSurgery? I'm closing my eyes and wishing for a speedy recovery for you. Healing takes time and you're blessed with a good nurse. So try not to puke, please.
Sheets are good protection against ghosts. Blankets are better, though.
Beth, Well today you are having your surgery, and I pray all has went well. Lord knows I can relate, as I have had my share too. I am glad you have your loving husband there to take care of you, and know that many people will be praying for you to be well, with a quick recovery, and good healing.
ReplyDeleteI would love to see your husband blog an update on your recovery. It might help him not worry so much, and let you rest;) Plus we can all see his creative side as well:)...Just a thought. Get well soon Beth, and know you will be missed, but please take care of yourself and rest.
All my best to you!!! Much love & luck & rest to you, and strength to your husband!
ReplyDeleteXoxo
Well, I'm late visiting you, Beth, but I want you to know I'm thinking about you. I hope for no pain and no vomiting and a speedy recovery.
ReplyDeleteit's nice to have hubbies that are good care-takers. i'm glad you have one, too.
ReplyDeletehope you're doing well! enjoy your time with your feet up. you deserve it!
LOVE LOVE the berry pic!
Just reading this so your surgery should be finished. I hope all went well. Do what's best for you. Take time to heal, and I hope you're not having too much pain.
ReplyDeleteI too must have a sheet over me. I don't worry about why I'm that way; I just accept it. ~hugs~
ooohhh! I have to have a sheet over me, too, b/c of the ghosts/monsters/boogie men! too funny :)
ReplyDeleteand now, seriously, you will be in my prayers for a safe surgery and a speedy recovery.....
Hope it is something simple & you heal really really fast!! Rest & take care of yourself.
ReplyDeletewell, since it now is tomorrow, i hope everything went smoothly and you're quickly on the road to recovery! you really should've given us a head's up; we could taken turns guest-blogging!
ReplyDelete;o)
BETH,
ReplyDeleteI am sending you lots of healing energy and light.
I hope you feel balance back into your life. real soon.
xoxo
oh beth, i'm so sorry i missed this! (been quite sick, myself, the last few weeks.) prayers for a quick and complete recovery.
ReplyDeleteSending you the warmest of thought that all goes well in your surgery. Be well. Thinking of you. :-)
ReplyDeletePraying all goes well.
ReplyDeleteI'm late in chiming in but I'm sending you my best, healing thoughts for a quick recovery.. and that the only ones running from your room are the ghosts. Hugs to you, Beth.
ReplyDeleteI shouldn't go away. Heart and thoughts are with you. Oh, that I lived closer so when you feel better, when you stop vomiting (and hopefully you never start), I'd bring you chicken soup and brownies or your favorite evil treat!
ReplyDeleteThoughts and prayers are going your way and will keep coming. Sending hugs... j
Oh, Beth, tell your husband that, even though I'm an RN of 45 years, I never did well with vomit,
ReplyDeleteeither! As a student, it almost did me in. I could handle anything else. And those darn teeny emesis basins!! I'd use my patients wash basins, instead, to help insure I didn't end up with the stuff on my uniform! It was all I could do not to join in and do a vomiting duet if I had a patient with nausea and vomiting and you can rest assured, I was very fast to dispense medicatio for nausea.
Perhaps, that's why I chose specialties such as the OR and psychiatry, then forensics,where folks usually aren't throwing up!
hope you are recovering well, my friend.
ReplyDeletexo
I'm so sorry I wasn't here to wish you well. But I'm glad to know it all went well. Sending you post-surgery love.
ReplyDeletexoxoxoxoxo