i like to hike. actually i like to use the word hike when the word "walk" seems slightly lame. seriously though, what constitutes a hike? is it when you carry a backpack filled with macgyver like doodads in preparation of saving a life or getting yourself out of a sticky situation or is it when your "walking" involves climbing upwards, as in a hill, or is it when you carry a backpack filled with miscellaneous camera lenses, bug spray, a cell phone and a water bottle? ding ding ding...it's the last one.
i've been trying to figure out what i'm missing. what's making me feel incomplete. turned off. slow and lethargic. a bit grouchy. quiet. questioning. withdrawn. insecure...and the list could go on. well, as completely idiotic as it sounds, i think it's the weather. somehow spring never showed up in its normal "spring like, happy to be here, don't you just love me" mode. instead, it moped its way here out of obligation, shrugged its shoulders, dragged its feet and drooled like it had been numbed with novocaine and then disappeared.
now summer is here. well it's june and my calendar says it's summer, but it's far from summer. summer usually brings a sense of renewal. a time for all of us to reset our complete selves...our moods, our attitudes, our joy, our hearts, our happiness ...well, our shoes, clothes, bags and sunglasses, too, but you know what i mean.
so that's how i feel. i feel like i haven't been able to reset myself. like a smoke detector, i need new batteries. granted, i've been going through the motions, wanting to believe that the "resetting" has actually occurred, but deep down, i know it hasn't. granted, we've had a few nice days, a few wonderful nights where eating outside with the love of my life was beyond perfect, but they were short lived. i want constant. actually, i need a few months of constant warmth and sun in order to reset myself.
i want/like to be hot. i want/like to sweat. i want/like to bare my skin. i want to be kissed by the sun. i want to sit in summer's arms, look into her eyes and fall in love like i do every year. is it just me, or is anyone else begging to be touched by summer?
last night, i had a wonderful time with our photography group. we're all camera nerds and we laugh and understand the same things. we share and critique photos, talk about lenses, straps, tripods, aperture and shutter speed and our upcoming events...and did i mention we laugh? a lot. we're such a wonderfully diverse group and it just makes me smile when we're all together.
happy weekend everyone
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