i've been waiting for you

hi twenty fourteen. thanks for showing up. i've been waiting for you.

you see, your predecessor and i didn't really get along very well and while i know that's a whole lot of pressure on you since you just arrived, i thought it only fair of me to be upfront with you right away. i pretty much love when things get off to a good, honest and immediate start. blame it on my ability to be a bit impatient.

i want you to know i have my word for you. my photos here, some of my favorite from years ago, probably already gave it away, but in case you hadn't quite gotten there...probably busy looking at your new surroundings...it's EMERGE.

do you like it?

there are so many definitions that emerge wears, but the one that jumped off the computer screen and onto my body with enough force to take my breath away for a minute was "to come into view."

you see, this past year i felt invisible. somedays i felt that i was hiding from myself and sometimes i just felt like i wasn't being seen. unfortunately, there were too many days when i felt afraid, small, unbalanced, and misunderstood. enough so, that i shrunk away from my normally brave, confident, resilient and steady self. i found out that if you allow someone or something to take away your power, that sadly, this is the result. it wasn't fun. in fact, at times, it was horrible.

so this year, thanks to emerge...grow, appear, surface, come forth, become known, rise, become apparent, come to light, become visible, develop, unfold and arrive will be the words that pull me out of the dark cocoon that kept me hidden last year and back into the bright world where i had always been. where i had always lived. where i belong.

hello new year

hello world

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