October 2, 2012

failing at fall.....


yesterday was the first of october and i was determined to post something all fall like, while wallowing in the fact that september came and went in a manor that made my head spin, but i failed.


instead, yesterday was a day where i walked in circles, as i just couldn't seem to find my footing
 and every time i looked at my laptop, it laughed at me.
granted, i vacuumed and i caught a few dust bunnies by their furry little necks and disposed of plants, both inside and out, that had finally put up their hands and called uncle, 
but i didn't shower until 7pm and dinner was a bowl of cereal.



at 3:15 this morning i woke up freezing. 
prior to that, i had practically been sleeping on top of husband, 
trying to warm myself with his body heat.
the idea of getting out of bed and looking for a wool bodysuit {which is what i felt i needed} seemed impossible, but finally i managed to move and made my way to our closet, where my short sleeved nightie came off and a long sleeved nightie and pajama bottoms went on. if socks had been handy, i would have put them on, too. 
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fall, you're here, all wide eyed and bushy tailed and i'm trying really hard to like you, but this is a relationship that always takes some special courting, so be patient with me.
{note to self: get down comforter out}



i did decorate a little bit for fall, so that's a start. 
at a self serve farm, i bought 10 pumpkins/gourds and dried corn stalks to spruce up the front of our house. next, i guess i'll jazz up the twiggy wreath on our front door, but only if i can still can find some fall decorations at michaels. 
sadly, they already have christmas decorations filling the aisles. by the end of the month, they'll probably have valentine's day hearts out. 
gosh i hate it when retailers try to make our months go faster,
since we all know that sadly, they fly by on their own just fine.
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30 comments:

  1. The need to cuddle in and cozy up must feel especially strong this Fall, with all you and your family have been through, Beautiful.
    I hope the downy softness that the Fall also brings comforts you and brings you along gently.
    Much love, Beth, my friend.

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  2. fall can linger a bit longer up north until it decides to drive down south. it has my permission! :-)

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  3. Had to chuckle at the size of that nut/acorn in the squirrel's mouth. Yikes, it's almost as big as his head. As for me, I am always ready for fall and winter after enduring the brutal temps of summer. Sorry for you that it's already there and you're not ready. :/

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  4. Your photos bring a sense of nostalgia - the bee is one that keeps drawing me back. Be kind to yourself and patient, Beth, in this time of change. Hugs to you.

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  5. The furnace was humming here this morning. Such a beautiful season in its expression of change.

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  6. send me some of that cold... i could do with it as i sit here sweating in the humidity

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  7. These photographs are wonderful, Beth.
    I love the light in each one of them, and I especially love the little squirrel.
    xo.

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  8. I went to Joanns fabrics in JUNE and they had fall out already. I absolutely hate that.. I turned around and walked right out without looking for what I came for. I told the poor clerk why I was leaving too, but in a nice way, because it wasn't her store, afterall.

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  9. Beth, you need to wrap your arms around the season and wrap yourself in warm cozy things because this season is here to help you heal and slow down and get your balance back.

    The cold drives us into the warm beds, the hot cocoa, the snuggling that we need to put our hearts right.

    I cannot wait for my temps to drop..I too need the nurture that fall provides. <3

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  10. I have been away from my computer only to come back and find our lovely post, Beth. Fall never had to court me, but you already know that. I do love the photos you captured here, the mood, and your honesty. Coming here feels like coming home to a good friend. xoxo

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  11. You and I have a similar relationship with autumn...I'm a hard sell and autumn has a long way to go before I fall in love!

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  12. I've always found seasonal changes hard to adapt to. My solution? Just go to bed earlier and get 8 hrs. of sleep. Does wonders for the body.

    As for waking up freezing, I wish I could trade places with you. I now wake up at night sweaty and soaking wet. Gone are the days of slumber sleeping!!!

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  13. I felt a slight chill in the air today, but not enough to get bundled up. I love the cooler temperatures though. 74 on my way home rather than over 100 was nice.

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  14. Hello...not failing here... And I know what you mean about the x-mas crap. I hate it...and I really don't like Christmas. Is that bad? Halloween is fun and not stressful. Christmas always makes me sad...I can't ever achieve all that Christmas hopes to be...

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  15. Seeing Christmas things for sale in stores before Thanksgiving still is a real pet peeve of mine...Soon it will just be out all year and then it won't be special:(

    I love autumn but it is surely a time for introspection...the grey skies just beg for some down days. Consider yourself hugged! and get that down comforter out!


    Love these photos! Especially that first one...gorgeous!

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  16. Love the leaf with bokeh! Niiiice! I love fall. The colors, the crispness of the air, trips to the pumpkin patch with the kids. You better take fall's hand quick and do your skipping as his big brother winter is right around the corner and you know and I know how we feel about that! Harumph.

    Lovely bit of writing by the way.

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  17. we've had the down comforter on the bed since mid july.. because the AC makes the bedroom a refrigerator

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  18. Oh so true, to the having to cuddle up to fall, it's not easy, and the retailers pushing the seasons.

    Brrrr.....

    Jen @ Muddy Boot Dreams

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  19. I hate that the retailers jump the gun, too. Kudos to you for decorating a little. The only decorating I do now, except for Christmas, is change out a group of photos of the kids by the front door, season to season. I didn't even change them from 'summer' to 'back to school'! Sigh. And oh, how well I know that feeling of walking in circles all day.

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  20. I am so with you on this, beth.
    I thought I was doing fine until this morning when the wind started blowing and I could feel the cold entering my house. Fighting putting on the socks, but I think the socks will win. Take care and sending hugs of warmth.

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  21. Beth, that little guy has personality. He's got that whole fruit in his mouth and looks at you saying: yeah, you damn right it's mine ;-)

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  22. What IS it with Michaels (and Joann and Target)? I'm glad I have my fall, because otherwise, I'd be picking dead branches and sticking them into my wreathe.

    Hang in there. Yes, fall. The temperatures are erratic. I find myself in and out of various bedclothes all night long. But it beats the S-word!

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  23. Since my kids have gone, dinner more often than not is a bowl of cereal, or at this time of year, a bowl of hot oatmeal!

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  24. those glowing leaves make me swoon ~ ~ ~

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  25. those glowing leaves make me swoon ~ ~ ~

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  26. Take your time sweetie...take your time....

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  27. Yes, somehow September went by overnight. I normally love fall, but it came too quickly this year, too coldly.

    I say, wrap yourself in that comforted and sip some tea. For days if you need to.

    xoxo

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  28. Great and varied collection... the first is my favourite. :)

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  29. Order a knitted nest from Vicki at 2 Bags Full. I am getting one of her fall nests. They are beautiful.
    Your photos are beautiful, soft and share your mood. xo Jenny

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  30. I've been freezing these days and feel quite compelled to put on the storms -- and that seems awfully early. That woolie thing sounds just about right! I was hoping to take care of the dead veggie plants in the front of the house and make it a bit more seasonal, but in today's rain, I'll give it a pass. Maybe tomorrow. So, I made green tomato bread instead. I'll let you know if it is good!

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**I love reading the comments you leave, as they make me feel like we're sitting in my kitchen, having a cup of tea, discussing life and wondering where all the time has gone ...beth