February 26, 2010

sometimes....

sometimes
it's my heart that feels all crumpled up like this
and
sometimes
it's just my thoughts
::
every now and then
it's my dreams about the future that feel all bent out of shape
so i wait patiently for a sign
to help straighten them out
::
some days
my words
that sound so wonderful in my head
come out crumpled up and in the wrong place and don't make any sense
and
while spilling all over the place
get walked on and really messed up
yet
they still belong to me
so it's my mess to clean up
::
and
sometimes
it's my ideas that keep me awake all night
that make me feel all mangled up in the morning
so
i try to write them all down
but
ideas
that are bright and beautiful and wonderful
while laying in the safety of my bed
never
seem to be the same
when morning is staring at me
with questioning eyes
and
my empty notebook is resting in my hands
::
here's to a weekend without any crumpled anything
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49 comments:

  1. I love this. Isn't it true--those night-time thoughts just never seem the same in the morning. Your description here really grabs me.

    Here's to a very uncrumpled day!

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  2. Way to say it, Beth! Have a happy weekend :)

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  3. Some days... me too... feeling a bit crumpled myself... here's to uncrumpling ourselves :)

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  4. you have a way of expressing yourself that seems to echo in me... here's to an uncrumpled weekend, yes!

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  5. Oh I soooo get this! Here is to more clarity and less crumpling! What do you think? xoxo

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  6. with love i hand you the iron, a pair of pliars and any other tool that you might need to straighten it all out.

    big hugs for you... i too have crumpled days. today has been one in fact.

    xox

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  7. This is beautiful and true -- and I hope you aren't sad, or too sad. We all get crumpled. Hope it's ironed out soon.

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  8. That image of crumpled thoughts is perfect. Perfect.

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  9. Your imagery in words is wonderful! Crumpled is a good analogy! Ideas at night do seem magical and then in the morning they take on a whole new color!! Sad somehow!
    Hugs
    SueAnn

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  10. Oh I hate crumpled days, I just want to shake my head some days and tell my crumpled thoughts to go away. Have a great weekend.

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  11. Yes, days around here get crumpled sometimes too!

    Hope you enjoy your weekend! We're attempting to pick up the VW bus again! Wish me luck & suuny skies!

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  12. When I have an idea at night I have to make myself wake up enough to write it down so that I don't feel like I missed out on something in the morning.

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  13. Night-time journals are brilliant. Keep writing in one. All it takes is the right lovely 3 a.m. idea to change your world. :)

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  14. Beautifully said...Love the way you think. Wishing you an uncrumpled weekend.

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  15. i LOVE this. the words with the photo... just beautiful.

    Have a wonderful weekend!

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  16. a purposeful metaphor . those crumpled spots can rest heavy...remain intertwined and it will be OK friend

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  17. you express so well the emotions of heart and soul ... both in word and image

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  18. I know exactly the feeling of having beautiful thoughts at night..and have those same thoughts fall apart at the light of day. Lovely!!

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  19. Hope you stay uncrumpled for a good long time...
    Big Love to You !

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  20. I am having a crumpled day today because of a crumpled night..lets hope we both have a nice weekend.
    ........:-) Hugs

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  21. i used to have a good saying - something about you have to spill something to make something....or something...

    i forgot.

    but yes, i hope you get some sleep, let things be, things are nicer and the world is quieter. hope it's all better.

    xo

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  22. Oh , yes, here's to it.
    Please.

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  23. A long time ago I wrote a poem that expressed these same sentiments.
    I like it when even though another person's words are different, we have had the same thoughts and feelings.
    So true about thoughts at night and then where they go and what happens to them when daytime comes.

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  24. I always feel like I've got too much to say...or not enough to say...so I don't say anything...

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  25. I could hear my own voice as I read your post today. Very nice!

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  26. And sometime when I am driving everything seems so clear until I get home and can't remember a clear thought in my head to write down or remember. Be at peace, rest, and come back refreshed. I think it is time for me to refresh with some quiet time.

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  27. Who would think to take a picture of a crumpled up fence like that. Well you did and you made something of it. GREAT JOB!

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  28. its the winter, its the lack of glorious sunshine and the constant ya di ya about the economy--give yourself a break and just let go---take a few photos--take care of you and yours--spring and renewal is coming!

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  29. Do have a wonderful free crumbled weekend. Take some time off for just You.
    Hugs from the longlegged girl from Holland. ;-)))

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  30. Here, here, wishing you a crumbled free weekend too!
    xo,
    LuLu

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  31. Ny whole life has been crumpled since I arrived in Georgia the 17th and found my mother, babbling gibberish and not recognizing me. After a week in the hospital, following her heart attack and stroke, she was discharged yesterday and is now in an extended care facility near my brother's in Atlanta. I am still in Columbus, trying to sort through her belongings and closing up her apartment of 18 years. I will be back in San Francisco on the 10th and, hopefully, life will resume some sense of normalcy!!!

    Your post really hit home!!

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  32. Ny whole life has been crumpled since I arrived in Georgia the 17th and found my mother, babbling gibberish and not recognizing me. After a week in the hospital, following her heart attack and stroke, she was discharged yesterday and is now in an extended care facility near my brother's in Atlanta. I am still in Columbus, trying to sort through her belongings and closing up her apartment of 18 years. I will be back in San Francisco on the 10th and, hopefully, life will resume some sense of normalcy!!!

    Your post really hit home!!

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  33. Beth: this was written wonderfully. I know what you mean!! Thanks for saying it so beautifully. Have a great weekend.

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  34. oh how i know.... yes, i do.
    wishing you a weekend full of clarity & laughter!
    xoooxoxooxoxoxoxox

    muah!

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  35. Lovely...Happy Weekending to YOU- crumpled or not...

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  36. Hello Beth,
    Visiting you for the first time. Your photos are beautiful, and your words strike a note of recognition in me. Have a smooth weekend.

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  37. What a perfect image to go with these meaningful words. You are so good at that! And you are so good at uncrumpling the thoughts and feelings that hover over you...and you put them into phrases that we can all relate to and understand. You are no crumpled fence my friend. You are beautiful.

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  38. lovely words and photo to share your thoughts with...you are good at sharing your heart...p.s. movie was great.

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  39. this is so true. My brain is so busy at night while I lay in bed, abuzz with ideas, thoughts, adventures, etc. I always tell myself I'll remember to write them down in the morning or to take action and then when morning comes, I can't recall a thing except that I thought I had a good idea. But it's lost.

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  40. You always know just how to say something that most of us are feeling. It is a gift.

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  41. so happy to have found my way over.. such a beautiful post... completely moving...

    such a gift you have with words and sharing...

    thanks for stopping by my little world...

    i must come back more often... it feels just right. :)

    xxo, kim

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  42. sometimes I feel that way to. it is nice to know we are never alone.

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  43. Beth,

    I totally get you!

    Angelica

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  44. So much of this post spoke to me. Did you have me in mind when you posted it:)

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  45. Beth, my very own weekend has been very crumpled. my heart has a huge wrinkle in it. but the best part of it all...it is over, and now we move forward. If only I had a fast forward button....to July when my baby comes home for R&R. So here's to uncrumpling days ahead of us all.

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  46. hey sweetness! we will paint that notebook red! red is good, very good!!
    xoxo

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**I love reading the comments you leave, as they make me feel like we're sitting in my kitchen, having a cup of tea, discussing life and wondering where all the time has gone ...beth