February 7, 2013

i cried today.....


actually, i think i cry a little bit everyday. i cried when i heard and watched the paul harvey and "so God made a farmer" commercial. i cried when lazaro, with his severe stuttering, sung on american idol. 
i cried when ellen surprised yet another single mother with money and scholarships for all of her children...especially when her oldest one when asked, "so you want to go to college, right?" and he answered with, "i will go to college." 
i cried yesterday, when my compassionate doctor worked with me on changing my prescriptions, yet again, in hopes of keeping my migraines under control. i told her about my harrowing week last week and she reached out and touched my arm in sympathy. that always makes me cries.

i cried today because of jill. if you have fifteen minutes and you're a woman and you have your breasts or you've had one or both of your breasts removed, or you know someone who has or has had breast cancer or any kind of cancer, or if you know someone who is young and in love and who radiates lights and is determined, or if you're married to a man who you know will do anything for you or if you have friends that mean the world to you, then you need to watch this video. you need to meet jill.

i cried when i read the words "what i didn't expect and could never have anticipated was how adrift i would feel without the constant demands of family life to anchor me in place or the small, daily tasks of motherhood to give direction and shape to my days." 
i'm reading "the magical journey" by katrina kenison and feeling validated by her words. nobody tells you just exactly how empty the "empty nest" actually feels...so she's doing her best to leave us all rest assured that it will get better and that "our time" is a gift we need to lean into and cherish.

well, there. that's enough tears for now. so go watch the jill video. i really, really want you to. thanks.

19 comments:

  1. maybe you already read my comment on fb. but wanted to add here that i love your new blog banner!

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  2. I can relate because I'm a crier, too. Embrace the fact that you are a compassionate person. Be well, my friend. :)

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  3. I knew Katrina's book would resonate with you. You have a heart. And a soul. And you are so very human. And the tears? They just prove that sensitive soul of who you are. xo

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  4. And yes about Jill. Beauty. Love. Spirit. All there. xo

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  5. I wouldn't say that I was a crier. I don't like it when I do, and I fully expected that video to bring the tears. With the exception of one or two little instances, the video did nothing but make me smile at the amazing grace of this young woman. She is beautiful!
    I read somewhere that long, bleak winters can drive people crazy. I think this long, bleak winter is making you cry.

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  6. I watched, and I cried, a little. But I also smiled at her incredible spirit.

    Xoxo to you, and to her, and to this world.

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  7. I know too many people personally battling cancer. It's a devastating disease. You have such a kind heart.

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  8. Wow - amazing and beautiful, and yes, it made me cry and appreciate what I have.

    Hugs to you Beth - I can feel your pain and I wish you well. xo

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  9. Great video clip....so inspiring! Thanks Beth for posting.

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  10. I went all the way through perimenopause without crying, but now it seems every little thing makes me cry. Loved the Clydesdale commercial as well as Paul Harvey and the farmer, because of the farmer, but also because I miss Paul Harvey! Hope your doctor can get your meds right. I'll watch the Jill video, and would even if I didn't have friends who had gone through this. Thanks!

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  11. i've been crying a lot all week... everything makes me cry.

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  12. All I can say is stay away from NPR's STORY CORPS because I? Am not one prone to crying and that always chokes me up. Always.

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  13. i've done my share of crying this week, as well (and i'm glad you have a compassionate doctor)

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  14. I am off to watch Jill. Yes, I, too, have had more than a few tears this week. And that doesn't count the Hallmark commercials, which I'm sure we'll be bombarded with this Valentine's weekend. I'm so sorry, though, that you are getting slammed all at once. Sending hugs.

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  15. I will watch Jill after I say hello and let you know that I'm thinking about you. I am an emotional person who tears up over most anything, especially those pull-on-your-heartstrings moments. When my little bird leaves the nest, I'll probably have to carry a mop around with me. Hugs,

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  16. the jill video is so moving and touching and inspiring. i lost my best friend of 47 years to breast cancer in september. she fought a brave battle with such grace and dignity. it was an inspiration to all of us. i cry easily as well ad i'm not ashamed about it as i was when i was much younger. it is a good thing to be moved, to be human, to be sympathetic to the plight of others. so i simply embrace my tears. have a good week.

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  17. i cried just a little inside
    reading all these tender reasons
    you cried
    and reach my hand across the miles
    in spirit
    and touch your arm gentle
    and nod knowing
    ....i'm with you.
    -Jennifer

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