winter has had its way with me and i'm starting to feel abused. i'm a pretty tough cookie most of the time, always one to speak to the manager when something's not quite right, but today i picked up the phone and called uncle.
to make me feel better, while i was flipping winter off, i pulled out a summer photo, loaded it here and then hugged my laptop to my chest. okay, it wasn't quite that corny, but really really close.
do you remember in january when i was saying hello to 2013 while i kicked 2012's ass to the curb? well guess what? january and february haven't been much better and i plan on ripping out those months in my day planner and adding them to 2012.
i don't care that last year is now technically 14 months long in my book, but i'm pissed off that 2013 only has 10 months left. sorry march, that's a lot of pressure, but i know you can do it. i know we can do it.
lately, i've been feeling as feminine as a mossy log during these cold snowy months and i'm sure that's part of the problem. i wear the same clothes over and over again. jeans, boots, long sleeved t-shirts with a tank underneath and a sweater on top and socks. now let's add a down winter coat, a scarf and gloves and whoa, you've got sexy...ummm, no you don't.
the one thing i have forced myself to do this winter is to shave my legs everyday. yep. everyday no matter what. my armpits, well now that's a different story.
what can i say. i like warm weather. a lot. i love bare shoulders and bare legs and cleavage and soft cottony materials all showing off my just barely sun kissed skin. i love flip flops and pedicures and the way my body feels loved when it goes outside and the sun reaches down to escort me wherever i want to go. winter hasn't tried that move on me not even once.
so with these past fourteen months all thrown into a bag and shaken to death with their old fears and anger and sadness and tears and false beliefs and jealousies and low self esteem and worries, i'm ready to fly forward. actually i'm ready to be catapulted. my feet are completely and without reserve welcoming the solid ground i see before me.
now if i could just get rid of that ^%$(*^&#; snow that's playing footsie on that solid, now it's all mine, ground in front of me....sigh, well, i can dream can't i ??
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sounds like florida is calling your name, big time!
ReplyDeleteI think I needed this soft beauty today, too. Thank you for the beauty.
ReplyDeleteWhat She said (above). I'm so sorry Winter is killin' ya, Beth. You've had some stuff going on lately and I'm sorry for that. I don't mind being bundled up, but I know when enough is enough. I'm awfully proud of you for shaving your legs every day, though. Ha!
ReplyDeleteAnd fly forward you will...beautiful post! xo
ReplyDeleteWith all the rain we've been getting (cold, to boot), I've had to remind myself that if you look above the clouds, you'll see that the sun is still shining. Metaphorically speaking as well as literally.... In the meantime, I'm sorry winter and 2012 have joined up to kick butt. Hang in there. I bet spring weather (and good things) will be here before you know it.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photo - love the soft purple.
ReplyDeleteIt's interesting how people have different views of things - we plow snow for a living and up until 2 weeks ago, the snow was non-existent around Chicago. Talk about being broke! And depressed, frustrated, aggravated. Now we're getting some snow, so I guess I can be happy again. Or try to be anyway. Life has not been what I planned or hoped for the past few years. I'm so tired of "Trying" all the time. It's exhausting.
Hang in there my friend - we have no choice but to keep getting up and trying.
Ditto on your sentiments and I only wish I had the creative expression you do..... And any amount of cleavage to show to the sun :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm with you -- it's been one hell of a 2013 so far. And the snow that is coming down right now doesn't exactly make me think promising thoughts about the rest of the winter. I am so ready for spring. I love how you took and made it your own! Lovely photo and a grand reminder of what lies ahead if we can hang in there. And we will. We always do, whether we like it or not. Onward. And count the days till spring.
ReplyDeleteGet your butt to the beach if you can, Beautiful! And if you do manage it, make sure to kiss the sea for me...
ReplyDeleteLove ya!
The photo is gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteYes, for a sun loving girl I can imagine how you are feeling about now.
I hope the sun comes out and shines brightly just for you in March. I am definitely looking forward to March and better times.
I am anxious for March too. I agreed with every word you wrote. your photo is beautiful. I hope you get lots of sun and that soon we can play outside again.
ReplyDeleteyou need to put on some lacy lingerie under those warm layers .. and shaving every day, oh lordy, thats a lotta razor rash ... about 13 years ago i had all the hair on my legs, underarms and bikini line lasered off .. gone forever .. it wasnt cheap but it was so worth it never to have ingrowns, never to have stubble .. never ever ever ever to put sharp razor to soft skin ... you should do it .. best investment ever .. then soft and sexy will always be there ...
ReplyDeleteSexy. What's that? I used to be intimate with sexy. . .
ReplyDeleteI have high hopes for March also...I wish your first two months of this year had been better. I'm with you ready to feel the sunshine and see color other than gray and white.....cheers to March and a better rest of 2013! :) ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry 2012 followed you into 2013! That's just wrong. Hugs, dear one. It will get better and the sun will warm you once again.
ReplyDeleteIt's like you've read my mind. I just told my husband and two coworkers yesterday that 2013 isn't better than horrid 2012 AT ALL. It has been such a sad, anxiety filled 15 months for the most part. I am down, but still kicking. (and yes, my allergies and auto immune system make me...virtually allergic to the world and to myself...) Thank goodness for faith, trust,perseverance and laughter.
ReplyDeleteI hear you!! I'm so DONE with winter. Last night? snow...and then rain...lots of rain. and then some more snow. It's grey again (it seems to be the only colour this winter knows) and the ground? Full of mush and slush...I tried to shovel it -- which meant I was pushing the shovel along and that stuff is heavy and I could feel a "twinge" in my back and said "enough!". Put the shovel away, came in, made some tea and took some "drugs" (only otc baby -- might get me some tylenol 1s tomorrow too!! hee!). Give me a beach, some sand and some sunshine. Soon!! xox
ReplyDeleteHa! This made me laugh, because seriously, I could have written it.... And I was just on my computer looking at last summer's flowers yesterday! Bring it on March... We need some love here!
ReplyDeletei soooo relate today! i love the idea of asking march for lots of warmth & love & happiness & everything good everyday!
ReplyDeletemove south !!
ReplyDeleteOh how I wish we could switch places. I live in the desert and am dreading another summer here. I have lived in the desert all my life and cant wait for a change. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. I do hope your March and the rest of the year are better. I LOVE you photo. You sure do know how to use a camera..
ReplyDeleteyour words describe how i feel when summer is hammering down here.
ReplyDeletei love the right now, the space between winter's gray
and the harsh pounding to come.
your toes will wiggle free soon:)
in the meantime, dance until they're warm.
thanks for that blushing violet,
Jennifer
Come to Florida...we got your HOT!
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean...bundled up is never sexy.
But shaved legs everyday?
Now that is sexy!!
photo is stunning, but I am still laughing at Deb's comment... yeah shaved legs everyday?? Not happening ;-)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photo and I know what you mean about wearing the same clothes everyday! But, no way shaving those legs every day! Hell, maybe once a week in the winter!
ReplyDeleteI was so excited this past fall, because I discovered the absolute joy of boots. I was never a boot girl. In the fall, I was completely seduced, and have been wearing them ever since. But, like you... over and over gets dull and dry and now I am tired of my boots. I am craving flip flops something fierce. And I'm not even a sun worshipper. I love rain. And wind and fog and thunder. But even I have had enough of the grey.
ReplyDeleteBring on the flip flops. Unlike you, I need to shave first. (bravo! I'm a wee bit in awe that you've managed to keep it up every day!)