make a wish...

I wish 

I had something profound to say today

but

the words I feel are caught in my throat

and

even with cup after cup of hot tea

they refuse to budge 

~~

my guiding light

my true north

my hearts anchor

my keeper of everything

is

gone

~~

his new job calls

and

monday

the united states olympic committee 

will welcome him with open arms

~~

so for now

I just want to say to this amazing man 

{because I know he's reading this on the road}

~~

"I am so amazingly proud of you, I can hardly stand it"

and

"you'll be missed more than you'll ever know 

and 

more than I'll ever let on"

~~

so

soon

I'll gather the pile of words and a few loose vowels 

that my heart has been collecting

that my throat refuses to release

and

gently put them in a wheelbarrow 

and 

take them out back and plant them one by one 

in a perfectly sunny spot where they'll drink in sweet rainwater and magically be kept safe from the little teeth of the chewing rabbits whose scrunched up noses and wiry whiskers make me laugh

so

they can grow

and

blossom

into a brilliant garden of beautiful thoughts

where

at first

they'll look

 a little bit like weeds

due to my green thumb being a little blue 

but

they'll have really big hearts

and

limbs that blow in the wind

just for you

*