I'm not sure at all where I'm going with this...

but

before I fell in love with photography

I was an artist

kind of

sort of

~~

okay

I have a great art studio and it's filled with everything mixed media

and

I have taken loads of art classes

and

I was published in two magazines and a book

but still

I have never felt like an artist and choked when I tried to call myself one

~

similar to now

when someone asks what I do

and

I muffle out "I'm a photographer" and mix it with a little cough

into my shoulder

and

then look up to see their reaction

~~

I don't know why I do this

since I'm so very proud of the work I do

but I do

~~

anyhow

lately I've been playing with a new box of crayons

and

I feel like a kid again

~

who knew layers and textures could be so much fun

{well misty did and she's been my inspiration}

yet

frustrating and time consuming

~but that's a whole other story~

~~

so yesterday

after misty and suzanne

~and now lots more of you~

told me how much they loved my new banner

and

jaime asked me how I created it

well

I decided that maybe that artist in me

that I never really acknowledged enough

was getting a little jealous of the photographer

who gets a bit more attention these days

and

that maybe they should learn to run around on the playground

together

and

play

~~

and

then I thought

maybe my clients would like something different

and

that maybe these could be printed on graduation cards

or

on a big wrapped canvas

~~

but now I'm getting ahead of myself

since I haven't even done a test run with a simple 4x6 print

~~

that's on my to-do list today

~

so

I'll let you know what happens

but

in the meantime

I'm going to keep hoping that I don't have to kick anyone of the teeter-totter

*