floating to stay face up...

I feel like I should be doing more

but

I'm not

~~~

granted I'm doing what I want to do

but

is it enough

?

for this month of may

with wild sprinkles of spring making me look into the sky everyday 

wondering what's coming next

I only have a baby photo shoot next weekend 

~if mother nature cooperates~

and

yesterday one of my family portrait photo packages was auctioned off

to benefit the boys and girls club

~

but 

is that enough

?

~~~~~

if I read between the lines or down deep into it

my horoscope continues to tell me to advertise my photography services

and

I just don't want to do that 

~yet~

as I love "word of mouth"

advertising

~~

is that bad

?

~~~~~

I love being behind the camera

with people in front of me

but

I want to continue loving it 

and

learning it

and

not feel overwhelmed with it

~~~~~

I just booked my first appointment for june 

and

I'm ecstatic 

~~~~~

I would love to have one appointment every week throughout the summer

with the rest of week spent "working" on my photos

which is something else I love to do

~but you knew that~

and

I never want editing and processing to feel like a chore

~~~~~

so I'm going to start visualizing more of what I want and how I want it to look

~which has actually been working for me lately

even if it's on silly things like getting a front row parking spot~

and

focus 

focus

focus

which is the word I chose this year 

after I started giving new year's resolutions the cold shoulder

and 

what makes total sense if you've been reading my most recent posts 

~~~~

last year it was

"see"

which ended up being the perfect word for a new photographer

and 

of course this year with 

"focus"

well

I've decided that word should probably be my daily or lifelong mantra

not just my word for this year

but 

whatever the case

my mind feels like it's running in all different directions

over the ice capped mountains and down into the mossy valleys and through the mushroom filled woods

 but with a goal in sight

~~

and

sometimes that's the only thing any of us can ever hope for